We all put a few pounds on over Christmas, and many of us managed to lose them again with the traditional New Year's diet. Some of you managed to stop drinking booze during 'Dry' January, or cut out meat with 'Veganuary'.
I , however, carried on picking at biscuits, eating junk food and drinking a few glasses of wine most evenings. I hate the dark evenings, and just couldn't motivate myself to get any exercise on those cold , rainy days. My gym membership payments kept leaving my bank, but I never set foot through the door. I stopped wearing my skinny jeans, and began to live in stretchy leggings.
Despite vowing to get back on track last month, I did not have a 'Fabruary' after all - and I hit rock bottom. I could give you a tonne of excuses. I'd been ill, my mother-in-law passed away, money has been tight. But really, there is no reason why I can't make good choices, and put my mental and physical health first.
Last week, I broke down in tears to a personal trainer – who I'd written an article about for The Shepton Mallet Journal. Al Stewart, runs a number of fitness initiatives locally, and I knew he'd really helped turn people's lives around. Through his business 'Transition4u' (www.transition4upt.co.uk) he's running a 12 week weight loss challenge at the local leisure centre – and I've signed up.
I've tried all kinds of fad diets, and been to every slimming club going. They certainly do work for many people but not for me. In 2013 I actually resorted to having gastric bypass surgery after becoming morbidly obese, at 20 stone and only 5ft 2 with a dangerously high BMI of 47.
Over the following 2 years I dropped almost 9 stone, but recently, as I've been able to digest a wider variety of foods, I have let over a stone creep back on. I've made regular video blogs about my weight loss journey and the surgery( you'll find all the archived video blogs at www.bariatricblogger.weebly.com ) and was so proud to reach my lowest weight of 11st 9 lb last summer , I was even featured in some magazines with before and after pics.
It terrifies me to think I could end up back where I started, I feel like a failure. At the first weight loss challenge session, I made lists of my motivations, learnt more about nutrition, and began to think about wellness in a holistic sense. I also got weighed on some high tech scales and was shocked to find out my metabolic 'age' was 55 , and I've just turned 40 !
I'm determined to make some long term lifestyle changes, and get back to good health and lose weight. Follow my blog to see how I get on.
I'm a 43 year old, mum of two little boys- currently living in Shepton Mallet in Somerset. I'm the Founder and Creative Director of Radio Shepton, a Stand up and comedian and spoken word performer, and write a regular column for The Wells and Shepton Mallet Journal. Which is the basis for my blog usually. I lived in Swedish Lapland for 7 years until 2014 where my boys were born. My partner and I ran a husky dog sledding business. Before that I was a poet, radio presenter, media lecturer, writer, TV producer, actress and burlesque performer ! I never want my life to be boring :)